The Cost of Euphoria - A personal journey through disorientation, meaning and recovery (ENG)

AVAILABLE FOR PRE-ORDER UNTIL APRIL 30th, 2026!

The Cost of Euphoria is a personal and literary account of what happens when clarity slowly begins to fade, when meaning starts to waver, and when you have to learn how to understand yourself all over again.

In this book, I take you into my inner world before, during, and after a psychosis. It explores euphoria that can feel liberating, yet ultimately comes at a cost. It is about searching, losing, relapsing, and slowly learning how to feel again.

This is not a self-help book.
It is an honest, vulnerable, and powerful reflection on what it means to be human.

What can you expect?
You can expect an intimate and authentic narrative, interwoven with reflections on mental health and personal insights into psychosis. It is a book that offers recognition to those who have felt the ground shift beneath them, comfort to those who sometimes feel alone, and hope — without clichés or simplifications.

Who is this book for?
This book is written for those interested in mental health, for readers who value honest storytelling, for anyone who has lived through something difficult or knows someone who is struggling. For those searching for meaning when nothing feels certain anymore.

Practical information
The English edition is published as a paperback (A5 format) and contains approximately 178 pages. Each copy is carefully packaged.

With impact
From every book sold, 7.5% is donated to Anoiksis Association, in support of people with psychosis sensitivity in the Netherlands.